a new day

so, i haven't sold anything...yet. but i just keep making stuff. i hope someone buys something soon, i need the funds. my wardrobe is in a right state and the overwhelming non-options are, well, overwhelming. i watched a jim gaffigan special on comedy central the other nite and i got a stomachache from laughing so hard. my birthday is coming soon and i just don't know how to feel. besides old-ish. i find myself looking more at the wrinkle creams than funky eyeshadow. do women still use eyeshadow? i've wanted to try that eye-color intensity one - is it almay? maybe it will take the attention off the fact that i've broken out. give me a break, does this ever end? it's like that commercial - your mother's wrinkles, your daughter's pimples. i just want to enjoy a stage of life where i'm not terribly self-conscious about myself, not trying to fit in somewhere, but not out of the picture yet. i'd like to just be. and be happy at that.
just be.